My daughters

Saturday my daughters's father (first husband) had a heart attack.  I am watching grandchildren so they can be with him.  He is having bypass surgery.  It has taken me out of my own self pity which is good but I wonder why my Ron died suddenly and did not have a second chance.  Then I pray for their father and for them.  I am 2 months into this journey so my feelings are all over the place.  I miss Ron so bad. Am trying to be brave in front of the grandchildren.  They are scared because they also just lost Ron who was their Papa And now the other papa is in the hospital.  I just have to get stronger!  I have to.