My Challenges

+Ok I am new to this kind of site but I need some real help here. It seems like I have overcome so much in my life but one thing keeps coming up that screws up my marriage relationship. That is lying or minimizing or hiding or just not communicating. Big problem and is threatening to end a 40 year marrige. Not good. Early in our relationship it was big issues I had drug addiction which I hid for years. I finally got clean but not before I did many inproper thing affecting my dear wife. I made ammends and worked hard for many years but on occasion when I felt insecure I would minimize an issue or not tell her about it mostly money issues. I always have felt like I didn't measure up money wise. Now if I do or say anything even slightly minimizing a situation it triggers my wife right back 30 years and make things very upsetting to both of us.  I know I must be very careful about what I say and how I say it. I have always felt I could have done so much more. I should have got more education done some real truly meaningful service to society and for my family. Ok enough for now. See Ya.