My brothers spirit

Before he died...Frank asked me to lea ve Brad and i asked him why.Sis...every 5 years when you are an alcoholic you suffer a relapse.He is much bigger then you and I can see that he is avery difficult person to talk to like mom.As least mother knows when you hurt her feelings..he just goes on.Frank then said.."Sis you did have a big love in your life and it never worked out..." I told him that he was right..but i am not obsssess and i dont follow him all around the country and world because i dont know where he is and at the state of my life..I simply dont even care.What we had will never be duplicated and that is that.i dont want to look or be 20 again.In fact...being 20 in 1967 was like taking Zoloft..it was a very bad time to be young.The women today have got it so much easer.They have peer groups.I never had that.They have support groups.I never had that and i never had councelosrs and such.i never had any of the help that is available today in schools because in 1962...this wasnt at all available and it was unheard of.Now most bi polars like to do very dangerous things.i hate fire and i have never started on.i have never shoplifted or spend time in prison.i dont smoke pot or crack.I dont drink and I owe this to the Irish nuns who taught me.Now I realize they were good years.Look..growing up in the 1950s wasnt all that bad.Dont listen to Newt Gingrich.What does he know? I dont know him and he never came or went to school in my hometown.If he did..he and Russ would learn to keep his mouth shut.Rush is the biggest idiot around and people just worship him.Look...these people are not gods.They are human beings.What they do in their private life is their business..but when you create a god like image to a person like rush..well things do happen and people actually believe in Rush..I dont..I have never listened to him and I think all of these so called conservative people should shut up.We are in this mess because Of George W.Bush and his oil greedy cronies.Bush was  told that this war would cost trillions but he didnt care and look what has happened.I dont believe in the war in Iraq and i never will.I dont know what we are fighting for..but it is costing everybody and everyone their life.Thanks..George..And i want to say this..I am grateful that my grandparents,brother and parents are deceased because if they continuted to live under you...all of them would have to work until their dying day...and George..WHY DO YOU HATE WORKING PEOPLE? EXCUSE ME...!tODAY i HAVE TO GET MILK SO I HAVE TO LEAVE..Zoloft has side effects..so be careful and discuss this withnour  doctor.