My belated journal entry
Melissa
Hi babe. Let me start by telling you that I miss you so much. I know that you know that already. I tell you that every day. I can't believe that it has been 3 months today since you left. Yet, I want it to be much longer. Time does not seem to pass quick enough. I never want to tell you "good bye." I believe it is "until I see you again." I feel like I should be doing more for you. For your memory. There was a famous man that used to coach the UCLA basketball team. His name was John Wooden. His wife died about 25 years ago, and he loved her so much that he wrote her a love letter every month after she died. He never shared them with anyone, he just folded them up, and placed them in a bundle on her pillow on their bed. He never slept under the covers on their bed again, and he never redecorated or rearranged their home. He did this until he died just a couple of months ago. I thought that writing letters to you would be a way that I could honor you, but obviously I have not been able to do that. Tonight is my first attempt express myself in this way. There are so many things running through my mind, that I don't know where to start.
I guess I'll start at least by saying Thank You! Thank you for choosing me, loving me, and marrying me! I don't know what you saw in me, because no one has ever cared about me like you did. Not even close! That is what makes this time now so tough. The one person on this earth that cared about me is now gone. I have to keep telling myself that you are just gone in the physical sense. You already know that I still talk to you, and lean on you in the tough times.
This is not going the way I wanted it to tonight. There is just too many things running through my mind. I really wanted to tell you about my weekend with Miles, and his basketball tournament. You would be so proud of him. I guess that I'll have to save that for another time. Please continue to look after us, and I promise that I'll try to be a better person in your honor. You deserve much more than that, but I'm afraid that is the best that I can do for right now.
I love you Melissa, and I always will!
Hi babe. Let me start by telling you that I miss you so much. I know that you know that already. I tell you that every day. I can't believe that it has been 3 months today since you left. Yet, I want it to be much longer. Time does not seem to pass quick enough. I never want to tell you "good bye." I believe it is "until I see you again." I feel like I should be doing more for you. For your memory. There was a famous man that used to coach the UCLA basketball team. His name was John Wooden. His wife died about 25 years ago, and he loved her so much that he wrote her a love letter every month after she died. He never shared them with anyone, he just folded them up, and placed them in a bundle on her pillow on their bed. He never slept under the covers on their bed again, and he never redecorated or rearranged their home. He did this until he died just a couple of months ago. I thought that writing letters to you would be a way that I could honor you, but obviously I have not been able to do that. Tonight is my first attempt express myself in this way. There are so many things running through my mind, that I don't know where to start.
I guess I'll start at least by saying Thank You! Thank you for choosing me, loving me, and marrying me! I don't know what you saw in me, because no one has ever cared about me like you did. Not even close! That is what makes this time now so tough. The one person on this earth that cared about me is now gone. I have to keep telling myself that you are just gone in the physical sense. You already know that I still talk to you, and lean on you in the tough times.
This is not going the way I wanted it to tonight. There is just too many things running through my mind. I really wanted to tell you about my weekend with Miles, and his basketball tournament. You would be so proud of him. I guess that I'll have to save that for another time. Please continue to look after us, and I promise that I'll try to be a better person in your honor. You deserve much more than that, but I'm afraid that is the best that I can do for right now.
I love you Melissa, and I always will!
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