My angel boy is with me
As you know right now I am under quarantine due to having the covid test on friday. Being quarantined is not fun just knowing you can not go out your door. This is until I leave this friday morning for my angiogram/angioplasty. After the nurse visit my anxiety rose a lot. Does not matter that this is done all the time, not to me it isn't and I had thought it was just 1 vein. But noooo they check each and everyone on your heart and around it and if need be a stent put in....hmmm that's a lot. My mind the last 2 days is trying to wrap itself around all of this. Anyways I got up to go to the bathroom and looked at the clock on my microwave and it said 7:11. Jerreds birthday and birth weight. This is the first time he was this bold. He knew though he needed to be to get my attention to let me know he is right here with me through it all. I then felt a warmth around my neck( he was hugging me). It felt so right I wish it hadn't ended. After that today was a bad headache day. Ice packs which work didnt, then I was pretty worried about taking tylenol since I am now on an 81mg aspirin daily. Finally at 5:00 this afternoon I was in tears so I took them. They helped some what not completly though so will take 2 more and put my ice pack on my head. And PRAY it is gone by morning. I have things to get done before friday as I will be spending the night at the hospital friday night, then just stop at home and get my stuff and feed and water Jack then go to my moms for a couple of nights. She doesn't want me being alone after this. I will hopefully be a real happy camper once all is said and done.
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Hello Jerred!!! My Kala often uses clocks to say hello....7:41...the time of her earth birth. I love SEEing these little winks!
SO much going on with your health....I'm praying for complete healing for you sweet friend.
Love and hugs,
Teri
Teri,
He did it again this morning. He knows how worried I am. This has me in a tail spin and it is not the only thing wrong with my heart, I also have SVT which I have to see a cardiologist who deals with the electrical part of the heart. I have never had so much major things happening at one time. I am scared. I must sound like a broken record on here I just don't know where else to get it out. Thank you for your kindness and empathy it means a lot to me. Prayers are definitely needed and again thank you for them. I am praying that after Friday I will feel less anxious and be able to live with joy again. Because of this I was unable to see Logan, Josh and Brooke and this weekend Aydan was supposed to be mine for the weekend but not possible. So this morning Jono sent me a couple pictures of my little buddy. Made me smile but with tears.
Ok I have gone on enough. I am sure I am boring.
Love you my dear friend.
Susie
Susie, I know must feel completely overwhelmed and exhausted. I'm sorry you weren't able to see the kiddos, and hopefully you can see them again soon. Great to have pictures, but hugs is where it's at!!
Love you!!
Gentle care, Susie.
These procedures are intimidating. Just had one myself for a massive blood clot in my lung.
When you are in those hospitals and they are doing procedures or surgeries
it can be un-nerving. I said a prayer and released my fear and let go of the "wheel" and
trusted God to guide me to healing or heaven and then found so much peace in that.
I could have never let go of control before the loss of my son...his passing made me realize
how little control we have on certain things in our lives.
Gentle care and prayers,
Ann
PS: love the signs
Tight hugs and continued prayers Susie and Ann!
Susie, I love that Jerred is right beside his mama! I get signs from Ed when I need them the most. Our kids are sensitive to our needs and that is such a gift.
Sending love and prayers to both you and Ann. Hugs, Linda
Thanks you gals are awesome. The beginning of October I have to go downtown Minneapolis near where the gentleman was killed by police and all the rioting was to have an ablation to stop the SVT. My heart races over 200-325 heated per minute. Scared to go down there and hopefully one my other 2 sons will be with me.
Jerred has becoming a real trickster lately. I have a strand of colored lights on the opening between my kitchen and living room. Well of a sudden they started flashing just in one side then that side goes out. Sometimes for minutes other times for days then boom they are in again. I just look at his picture and see a new glimmer in his eyes, like haha mommy!!! Finding things moved or in the floor etc. I need the giggles and he is providing. Has another 7:11 this morning.
Hugs and love to each of you,
Susie & Jerred
I definitely understand your concerns for traveling to a riot crazed city. I just can't wrap my head around all the destruction...all the hate...all the pure evil in our world. I'm MUCH more concerned about traveling due to all that mess than due to Covid!!!! I pray for your safety while traveling and most especially while in Minneapolis. I pray for a successful procedure and for total healing of your body.
LOVE how Jerred has been showing up and showing out!!! Keep it up sweet boy, momma needs those giggles!!
Love you sweet Susie~ Love to Jerred~