My Aching Heart

Since Richard, my life partner, passed seven months ago, my heart still aches to have him back in my life.  I still love him just as much today as I did before he passed.  I know he witnesses my daily events, and is very proud of how far I have come in the short time that he has been gone. Christmas was not the trauma I expected.  It was nice to be with family, and have two days of quality time with my only sister.  New Years will be spent overnight with dear friends of ours.   I am still making changes in our home, hurdling all the "firsts", loving my adopted cat Moochie, my friends, and my blood family, work family, and church family. This is a time to reflect on what I am now blessed for, even though I would give it all up to have my former life and my dear husband back.  I have a beautiful roof over my head, no mortgage, employed, medical insurance, food on the table, family and friends that care about me, and my dear pet.  I was also blessed with 38 years to spend with a wonderful man that is irreplaceable.  God broke the mold when he made my husband.  I don't know how my life would have turned out if I had never met him, fell in love with  him, nor married him. He has left me with invaluable lessons and a lifetime of warm memories.  I know I will again become independent, self-sufficient, and confident as the days go on. My faith in God has also helped a great deal.  Daily prayer and meditation gives me the strength I need to enjoy the day.