MUST READ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So yesterday wasnt to bad. Just felt wierd. Way to much energy kinda felt like i did when i was dipping in cocaine when i was younger. It drove me crazy kinda. But this morning went ok ok so far its just 9:54am now so im really still in the morning stage i guess i thought it was a little later than that. Been doing alot of thinking on some things and my minds made up. Im going to start a online svhool and work on my GED then from there study and hopefully be what we all have been talking about it. I hear it on hear all the time an all the time in I.O.P. class so i guess that i been delt the hand for this poker game and its a full house so i guess its jackpot time. Im going to all of you more tan ever to help get me through this. Im goingto try an new daily plan to see if i can self manage my mental issues and hopefuly overcome them my self with out the help of meds, I got hemp oils for just about every problem they say i have just got them in yesterday and also i have hemp flowers. Ive tried the flowers a few times and it seems to work and now i have the oils for anxiety, depression, sleep, and mood control there are 5 differnet bottles i just forgot what last one is. So i guess now its time to slowly attemp to over come my fears. Hell maybe if i can do it and show you guys it can be done then maybe just maybe yall can do the same over come your fears then from there you can hopefully get yalls lifes back and live the way you want to live and the way your forced to. I hate seeing myself like i have been and been ready for change and tired of waiting on meds to work or being a lab rat for meds to see what work and what doesnt. My first change is no more pills strickly herbs weather it thc or hemp. THC is last resort for now until it is legal but im going to try this hemp out same thing as weed just lacks thc. No meds this morning and honestly im feeling great. Now i did smoke a little this morning. But yea thats my game plan. Hopefully yall will see my progress and my push and i prayer that it will give you guys the push and will see all things are able to be overcome no matter what you do, did, what you look like NO MATTER WHAT WE AL GOT IT Some people just need to see some else do it before they are able to. I know i may have some crazy ass post at time about some wierd shit but it is all true and everything i post has happened as well. There is so much that i havnt posted or in the middle of posting just forgot about it but it all will be on here soon enough. HERES A STATEMENT FOR THE DAY ((((( WE ALL ARE PUT THROUGH WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH FOR A REASON AND IT MAY SOUND FUCKED UP RITE NOW BUT EACH AND EVERYONE OF US ARE PUT THROUGH THIS SHIT TO SO OUR SELFS THAT WE ARE STRONG AND WITH IT ONCE YOU OVER COME WHAT EVER IT IS YOUR GOING THROUGH YOU WILL LOOK BACK AND SAY DAM I AM STRONG MAYBE I TAKE THIS AND SHOW PEOPLE GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING THAT WE CAN OVER COME ANYTHING EVEN VERY BAD THINGS AND USE THAT FOR A GOOD PURPOSE LIKE MAYBE SAVING SOMEONES LIFE THAT IS OVER LIVING , OR SAVE SOMEONE FROM MAKING A BAD MISTAKE)))))) Ive been through alot and wanted to give up some bad but some thing wouldnt let me. FOR A REASON!!!!! May of took me for ever to see it but ill say this " I KNOW DAM WELL IF I CAN DO IT EVEN WITH ALL THE SHIT IVE DONE AND HAD DONE AND WRONG WITH ME THEN I DAM WELL EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU CAN DO IT .YALL DO IT EVERY DAY ON HERE YOU JUST DO SEE IT IN YOUR SELF YET BUT KEEP PUSHING AND ILL KEEP PUSHING AND WE WILL CONCOR THIS TOGETHER !!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Big hug Scott..... Good for you wanting to get back into school.... That's a great goal!!
Why would you want to stop your medication?? if you don't mind my asking?.... I would work with your doctor sorting out your disorder and what's in your best interest sweetie...…. Big hug......xo
well the meds ive been off of for while since they cut my gabs. and honestly i feel better doing what im doing now, whole lot better from the feeling of the meds. They didnt help with hardly anything now im off them and doing my thing im going out alittle more to different places working my way into public places slowly as before i would panic with just the thought. Self learning mood control helps alot. I think i should post later the more ups here latley than past shit and my problems. Mayby that will help me more by be more of a blessing to someone feeling stuck like i was and see there are different working was of working around taking meds and have to turn back to useing drugs when there are other ways of doing it and staying clean. Ive tampered off my meds almost 4 weeks ago and went from not knowing what to do to having a better train of thought and helping people when i couldnt help my self so yea thats a little more more than i planned to write but yea that about sums it up i think may have left out alittle but itll be in my post later today at some point kinda a day 1 to now from switching to no meds and explain more on why and why i went to hemp and how its working for me and the differnt ways of useing it other than smoking. They have hemp foods like candys brownies things of that sort as well and then the oils which i dont know to much about just yet just got them yesterday
glad to hear that you attempt more education. be careful drop medication reactions talk to doctor about. hope you staying off drugs since relapsing.
best believe it no drugs..........and im good with no doc i feel better now than before really i do
Scotty, best of luck being your own doctor and continuing to use cannabinoids, along with THC as needed. Just don't claim to be clean. Glad you have coping tools that are helping you make some positive changes. Really glad that you are staying positive and moving your life in a positive direction. Uplifting hugs.
There's no thc and n what I'm using and weed isnt a drug but I see where your coming from but if I'm clean from my DOC then I'm clean not only in my eyes but my group so that's really just your opinion. But what I use DOES NOT HAVE THC so yes in fact I'm clean. I'm mean people aren't overdosing on pot people are not killing people from smoking pot. Just saying.......but thanks for the support even if it's not supporting my choice but yea hemp has no thc in it at all I'm passing all my drug screens so it works and 100 percent legal but don't take me wrong tho I really do thank you tho for the support cause you have been a big help but I think you may have took my post wrong or I may have worded it wrong
Scotty, you are very gracious. I thought you said that you had smoked marijuana this morning, which is why I referred to THC. I'm in Texas, and there is a different view on clean here. As with meetings, take what you can use, and leave the rest. Definitely support your positive changes and direction. More uplifting hugs.
Yhabks
Thanks
Knew what you meant even with the typo. Hugs.
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hemp and marijuana are both cannabis. hemp does not get you high due to low thc. mary gets you flying because high thc. the higher end weed contains highest level of thc. scot is not drugging if only low thc hemp smoking. wish i could say same because mary affects my milk which affects my son