Much closer to reality
So I havent written a journal in a very long time lol. I havent accually been on this site hardly at all in a long time but it was time to come back. Over all things are good with me. I read my last journal entry & laughed !!! Yes that was a good day with the idiot but wow they are so few & far between. I am tired of the crumbes & making excueses for him. I am tired of telling myself this is diffrent & shes going to come around. ITS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN , IT NEVER WAS!! Is he a true N idk, does it really matter NOPE hes still sucks most of the time lol. I have going to therapy for a few months now & that is a good thing. I really like her & she never really pushes me about him & he is not the only thing or even the main thing we talk about. We talk more about ME & what do I want & how am I going to get there !!!! I am making progress but man sometimes its hard espically when life seems to want to toss so many obsticals in your path !!! A big one for me has been my work schedual changing !!!! I went from having fri sat off to wens thurs now . VERY hard espically as I had alot of things I wanted to do all on SAT grrrrr !!!! Oh well I will find other things to do. They say everything happens for a reason soooooo maybe something unexpetedly good will happen !!!! I am trying to be positive & open to new things !!!! I have not gone N/C with my ex we have done that many times & it never works. I am however just gradually backing away & finding other things to take up my time. I think that is the best way to do it. Just gradually fade out so its not a direct challenge to him. So far it is working for both of us. We communicate much less then we used to & I am happy to say I am not having overwhelming needs to contact him !!!! Over all I am good with hardly talking to him at all & no real desire to contact him YEAH !!!! OK well I think im going to get off here for now :) Im accually getting some sleep at night too !!!! So goodnight all !!!!!!
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I gradually backed away from my ex too. That worked well for both of us. He was in TX. and would call about the most silly things. Where would the catsup be in his local Wal Mart? I knew when he got his harem surrounding him he would be our of my life.
I hope you sleep well tonight. I remember a lot of sleepless nights.
Uggg the sleeping is not going well tonight lol :(