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hi everyone ....well I am over all that and my depression is back up ware it was before a better place one ware I can deal with it better ..........on the pars weekend...my son had a birthday party for his daughter she was 10 and my h was 60 so we celebrated that to it was a surprise for him ....my son got a big. blow up jump room with a slide and a cupola who made cotton candy and snow coons all after noon  .....the kids had a blast ........what made it even better was that our daughter that had been not wanting to be a part of the family for a few years came and stayed all day and everyone had so much fun together .....she is home again ware she belongs.......that just topped off the day and when she saw that there was no judgement from anyone and there was only love for her I think that helped her ....she gave me some flowers for Mother's Day and gave me the biggest huge she has given me in years and told me she loved me .......my family was split for far to long ......over something her x  . caused ...now we have her back ...and she is in a happier place ....so I am very great-full.....my days might be mixed up it was Mother's Day weekend...........I had been so sick with migraines I couldn't get out to get my h a card or a present  ......but I let him know how much I loved him and for us just to be there with our children and our 19 grandchildren parting all day together it was all we could ask for ...the next day we were so tired we rested all day and went for a afternoon sleep ....not like when we were younger and could party all weekend ..lol.....still having a hard time going into the depression board it just hurts to see how others are suffering ...so much ...I just feel the pain ...but I go in and see if I can answer at least one post ...sometimes I can ....although I am doing better than I was I still fight every day ....and I need to fight harder...because I haven't been fighting hard enough ....or I couldn't  wasn't able to  ....I need to start pushing my self .....I don't think I can advise others if I can't do what I know I have to do my self ...my little painter is coming tonight we have done the sky and the ground and rocks and tonight are going to mix colours for our trees and bushes...and start on them .....she is doing relay good ....take care ....god bless ....