Moving on, I think
I've been wanting to write everyone or at least put a journal up. But I'm not dealing with this one so well. She wasn't my best friend or anything. I just knew her personality. She made me laugh. She was good to be around. I finally came to terms with her being dead when I saw my grades for the semester. I passed with a 3.0. I dedicated the semester to her on Facebook because I hadn't found out about her death until 2 days before my last finals. It was really hard studying for each of them but I did it. And then I completely fell apart the night after my last test. Evidently, I had a lot to get out lol. I'm pulling it together day by day. Preparing for the next semester. I'm also trying to come to terms with the fact that I really am in Nursing school and that I really am making it. Through all the studying, losses and petty crap from the girls, I managed to make good grades, secure a place to live and a new job. It's a lot for someone like me to take in. I'm the black sheep. I'm the guy who just doesn't fit in. I rarely get things right. But all this good stuff keeps happening. I keep moving forward. I have a lot of goals and dreams. I'm just starting the best part of my life. I'm glad to be here.
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I\'m so sorry to hear about your loss and that you\'re having a rought time with it. Sometimes we don\'t realize how much we really do need to get out, until we finally let it happen. But all these accomplishments that you\'ve made despite the rough stuff, are awesome. Sounds like you\'re on a great path :) congrats, my friend.
I\'m so proud of you.. you are no black sheep. YOU are awesome.
xo
It\'s interesting how we let our past define when we are doing amazing things now. I mean look at you passing this semester with one of the hardest tragies people go through, loss of someone they care about. I\'m really proud of you! You are making things happen.. Keep going.