Moving On

Yesterday was quite satisfying. With the deadbeat out of the song, my work around the base camp flowed much more freely. The contractor ordeal isnae over. There is still the refund owed and/or legal action pending, but at least the work, itself, is flowing freely once more. I am letting go and letting God on the contractor yaddahs. What will be will be.


Life willing, I will be on the road toward that long-awaited family time next week. My conscience won't let me leave that moldering public health and safety hazard the contractor left in the yard 7 weeks ago, but I donae expect the job of removing it to take very long. It is a bigger job than I can handle alone, but a small crew should have it gone in a day. Two max. Life so often tramples on my expectations, but here's to hoping. I am feeling quite starved for family touch. I will review the validity of the lab/rooftop garden dream after my spirit has been nourished. The contractor stonewall wasn't as painful as a father fuck, but it was painful enough that I still have some healing to do.


I resisted the temptation to start calling around for the trash removal and legal complaints yesterday. I felt calm and rational enough for the task, but decided to go for the safety net of the extra reflection time. I trust focused strikes far more than the emotional floundering. I believe I am holding steady on the emotional floundering, but I am still falling into the name-calling, et al, all too easily. As I have worked to lose the verbal sparring habits, I have come to believe that sticking to the facts is the cleaner vengeance. People call themselves far nastier names than anything I can come up with. Adding my own creative repertoire to the mix only distracts them to their own internal mix and makes me a target in the process. Work it out with your own conscience, compadre. It ain't mine to sort.

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positiveoutcome
positiveoutcome

Happy things are flowing more smoothly for you Arfie. Letting go and letting God sounds the best to do. To leave things at God's will. Wishing you the best in your endeavors. :-)
DOS2
DOS2

support to Your sort,
Shake the Devil off... I still have that video if you want a replay let me know. I have the image of us dancing the Druid chant in front of your indoor campfire. I have even taken off the shoes for this dance!
Don't forget to say a prayer for the devil, let GOD know you want to turn over the vengeance to her. I have heard it said that she said it belongs to her.
happy trail to you and silly : )
arfie
arfie

My copy of that video is still in Texas. I did a lightweight search to see if the video is on the internet and haven't found it yet. Several works by the same name, but no Father LeDoux.

Ya gots me thinking I'll go light that fireplace and imagine you with me during that Druid chant. Shake it, sister, shake it, with or without the shoes. Of course you knew I was already barefoot. . . I still haven't learned a proper respect for shoes.
DOS2
DOS2

I have heard that a lot of back and leg pain can be blamed on shoes in general... reflexology says that the foot does great work on the whole body when it gets a chance to feel it's whole surface on boulders of the earth.