Moving forward

I lost my husband of 43 years 8 months ago and I just can't seem to figure out how to go on.  It was bad when we lost our son and daughter but he was always there by my side.  This is so much worse. Now I have nobody to turn to, talk to or hold me when I cry.    I just don't know how to get my life back on track. I know I need to get out of the house and start doing things but I just can't seem to force myself to do it.  It's basically to work and back but at least I have work to look forward to.  It's sad when you know what you need to do to try to heal but you just can't do it.  I wonder if I will ever be able to figure this out and be able to have some sort or normalcy in my life again.