moving along.....

i guess you could say im slowly starting to get my life back together.... though i feel pretty numb. im starting to realize who my real friends are, and whose really worth my time. though i cant say it doesnt hurt to lose people. me and my family are back on good terms again. which is really nice. things at work are goin good again. which is really nice cuz i have to be there alot. oh, and i moved!!! staying with my stepmom and my dad wasnt workin out. so now im unpacking and settin up in my new room at my apartment!! yayyyy!! ahh i never knew i had too much stuff. unpacking sucks! but im looooving having my room and space again!!! still been pretty depressed about many things. i cry to myself alot. lame. but im just moving along and just takin it day by day. this was the year when my life fell apart. after all the bullshit ive gone thru before, this was the worst. but ive been doin better. i havent harmed myself in 2 months. and have promised i wont ever again. no more suicide attempts for me yayayyy!!! and im happy i feel like that. and even though my most important relationship is falling apart, im gonna do whatever is in my power to fix it cuz i love him too much. sorry i havent been around much loves, dont have internet in my apartment yet....i love you guys! xoxo now i gotta go to an appointment with my psychiatrist....