Motivation

The human brain is a mysterious organ. It is our consciousness. I always thought I had control of my thoughts and actions. I am working to break the habit of telling lies. Little untruths, nothing earth shattering. I am consciously monitoring myself. Despite this I almost slipped. I started to tell an exaggeration. It served me nothing. Why would I do this? How do I stop? I have made the commitment to beat this thing. I feel dirty and tainted that I do it. As if I have some evil disease in me. I am working for the cure. So the motivation to stop is strong, but what is the internal motivation to lie? I think it is to gain approval. It is not needed to get love and acceptance but somehow I want my persona bigger and stronger. I ask my spirits to watch over me today and to guide me on my path to truth. I am scared how deep this evil defect is inside of me and I go forth with the goal to change.