Motivation
On top of fighting depression daily.....I am having so much trouble motivating. I don't want to get out of bed. Having sleepless nights where I sleep the next day. Damn doctor took my sleeping pill away.
I just have no get up and go. I force myself to go to the doctors. Wait until my husband has a day off to go grocery shopping. When I am able to go somewhere, I don't want to come back home.
Man this is frustrating. I have been talking to God more. I hate that it has to get to the point where I can't deal in order for me to have a reason to pray. Hate it!
Ok, for now I will be grateful for the roof over my head, the health insurance I have, the husband that puts up with my weird behavior.....and of course my dogs who keep me grounded and giving me a reason to get up every day.
I am just done fighting and struggling.....I'm going with the flow no matter where it takes me.
I just have no get up and go. I force myself to go to the doctors. Wait until my husband has a day off to go grocery shopping. When I am able to go somewhere, I don't want to come back home.
Man this is frustrating. I have been talking to God more. I hate that it has to get to the point where I can't deal in order for me to have a reason to pray. Hate it!
Ok, for now I will be grateful for the roof over my head, the health insurance I have, the husband that puts up with my weird behavior.....and of course my dogs who keep me grounded and giving me a reason to get up every day.
I am just done fighting and struggling.....I'm going with the flow no matter where it takes me.
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