Mothers day
So Today is Mother's day. It sincerely sucks. My mom is unavailible and I lost a child. Am I considered a mother still? I don't know...but I feel like I should be the one to celebrate it with my husband. Instead he went to his mom's house and didn't call me when I got off work and didn't answer my call until I was already home. He said he was going to stay there and I could come if I wanted to. I said no, so now I am home alone and depressed. About my eating:I followed my meal plan, only one more snack to go. Yay for me!!! The thing is, I have a blister on my throat, so That makes things a little difficult .I went to work from 9-4 with a lot of breaks because its mothers day and a lot of parents canceled their children's class. On my breaks there were a lot of comercials, especially for food. Also my coworkers ate chinese, carls jr, and alfredo from the cheesecake factory...which was tempting me to go and get my own, but again thank God for the blister. There were also pretzels and goldfishes at work...AHHH!! And now, there is cake at my house. The cake doesn't look to good thank God for that one as well. I made a new pact with my ED. Instead of No BP, since I cannot seem to follow that one, if I have to binge, it will be on bread, and salty food, since I don't like salt and the only binges I do like is sweet and sugary. That helps me as well. Anyways I am just sitting here alone on the computor on Mothers day, no mom, no child, no husband, no one
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