More waiting!
Cant think of anything else to title my journal entries at the moment except to moan about waiting....again.
I am actually thinking its been really good to have had a break between the actual IVF and the FET just to give my body and mind a bit of time to relax about the whole thing, plus it feels a little bit like the universe knew that work would be a bit challenging for now as we have 2 new staff at work who I will have to train.
I actually hate my job at the moment due to being overstepped for a promotion by a girl who has been there half the time I have who I trained and interviewed. and who made no effort before there was a job up for offer. She is now my manager and actually knows less than me, now we have new staff I am expected to train and really the stress of the whole situation has been ridiculous. My managers boss, who hired her does not work in the same building as us and has no idea about how the work place runs. But I was on holiday for 4 weeks before the vacancy was filled and she had an opportunity to prove herself. Even my old manager was training me before he left to fill his position and everyone who I worked with was shocked. It has caused a horrible environment and it was a miracle I got through the IVF without having a melt down. So it feels right really to wait for the FET and hope that I am more chilled out by then.
Even so I cant help being frustrated with all the delays, I have planned when I might finally have my baby so many times and it just keeps getting further away. Also I keep thinking about my little embryos in the freezer, wondering if they are boys or girls, what colour their eyes might be....... its enough to drive a person crazy!!
Anyway that's another boring update really just for me to read later on maybe
I am actually thinking its been really good to have had a break between the actual IVF and the FET just to give my body and mind a bit of time to relax about the whole thing, plus it feels a little bit like the universe knew that work would be a bit challenging for now as we have 2 new staff at work who I will have to train.
I actually hate my job at the moment due to being overstepped for a promotion by a girl who has been there half the time I have who I trained and interviewed. and who made no effort before there was a job up for offer. She is now my manager and actually knows less than me, now we have new staff I am expected to train and really the stress of the whole situation has been ridiculous. My managers boss, who hired her does not work in the same building as us and has no idea about how the work place runs. But I was on holiday for 4 weeks before the vacancy was filled and she had an opportunity to prove herself. Even my old manager was training me before he left to fill his position and everyone who I worked with was shocked. It has caused a horrible environment and it was a miracle I got through the IVF without having a melt down. So it feels right really to wait for the FET and hope that I am more chilled out by then.
Even so I cant help being frustrated with all the delays, I have planned when I might finally have my baby so many times and it just keeps getting further away. Also I keep thinking about my little embryos in the freezer, wondering if they are boys or girls, what colour their eyes might be....... its enough to drive a person crazy!!
Anyway that's another boring update really just for me to read later on maybe
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Waiting is one of the most difficult parts of IF, and I am not a very patient person, so I can relate to your frustration a bit! Hope work gets better :)
Thanks Polka dot xx
You have been more than patient really! I would be going nutso. I\'m proud of you for keeping a positive outlook throughout all of this. It really sounds like things really are happening for the best though. We\'ve had several FET success stories lately. It will be worth the wait!!