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I turn the knife over in my hand And think about the life I've been dealt Things never work out the way I plan I get whipped by this invisible belt One long whip of the blade Will end the pain I feel Replace it with the physical kind A pain that feels too real Holding onto the edge for dear life How much can I take of this strife? One step can take the life inside There's lots of room six feet under to hide This way ill keep my dignity and pride The voice in my head don't lie This is a good day to die If I only had the courage and strength To take a step toward the ledge Nothing else matters anymore I can't take this anymore I'm evil to the core How do I keep going when inside I'm sore? The tears won't surface What am I doing in this place Nothing but a huge disgrace
Nothing to cling to, nothing left When I'm gone there will be one waste of life less Do not stress Ill be forgotten in time No hand to help that uphill climb My emotions match the weather I'm at my last tether Feel like I've been whipped with hard leather I want to be free like that lone feather