More Tears

The past year or two i've been dealing with loneliness alot. I've been friends with this girl since high school and we were like the best of friends. Hung out all the time, she came to my house , i went to hers, etc. But she had been friends with another girl since they were kids. Today my friend spends more time with her other friend and basically i'm just good enough to go to a high school game with her. I will be on facebook sometimes and it will just be staring at me in the face. I have confronted my friend about this and she acted concerned but i dont think she truly cares. Once again i ended up in tears, it hurts to know that i'm just a back up call if no one else is around. My feelings are getting hurt again . My friends birthday is coming up soon and is going to st.louis and she asked the friend shes known since she was a kid to go with her....:(. The only time she wants me around is for group activites. I've always been there for her, tried to be the friend i could be. She keeps saying she wants to be roomates with this person, and i felt like okay you dont want to be roomates with me?  So i'm going to see how long it would take for her to reach out and call me to say hi, i'm not going to write her, its all up to her now.