more lyme related problems

so tonight as I was looking something up I stumbled upon something that I had discovered about my body 6 years ago. I remember the day I found it like it was yesterday. Wondering what was up with my legs being purple with orange spots and just figured it was a normal for my body I guess? but then tonight, reading about what it actually is and that it is in fact Chronic Lyme related just upset me even more. I have had this stupid thing for 6 years, battling it for 6 years but have only been aware for almost 3. it's just really disappointing it just makes me want to cry. every day I find something that I've just been living with and figured it was just the way my body was but then finding out it's all because of this stupid thing I have inside me. lately I've just wanted to give up.