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Well after all this, I found out 1. He's back with the stbx he wasn't divorced from less than 5 days after dumping me. 2. After talking to a mutual friend, apparently this was in the works bc the mutual friends knew that he had planned on getting back and was gojng to dump me. He made it sound like it was me and what I said about him not getting his shot together...he's a liar and a cheater and yet he's had gotten inside my head. I know they are together tonight. He is getting what he wants, he doesn't have to get divorced now and is married and I'm sure when his daughter graduates they will be living together back in their marital home. I just don't get how someone can use someone so badly like that when I carried him and paid for almost everything for 4 years. Yes, I maybe know I should have walked before, but I stayed out of fear of being alone to only end up here anyway.

Anyone have any advice how to get someone out of your head when a month ago you were best friends? For some reason I am sitting here crying now and for what a loser asshole.