Mood Swings
I am having mood swings alot lately. I woke up this morning and Im just feeling depressed. I dont trust my judgement or my feelings anymore.
I got home late last night and Roomie was pissed. Today after i do my labs and have breakfast i will try and do something productive until he gets home and talk. The one thing that eats away at me is RV guy says I need to get rid of Sammycat and I cant do that. This cat has given me so much unconditional love that i wouldnt dare part from him. So...today at some point till Roomie gets home i will go look at some apartments. This is all so scary for me. RV guy as much as I have feelings for him, is not an option.
Roomie went to work this morning. I have been telling him if hes unhappy he needs to find another job. Hed rather be miserable and I dont like seeing him this way. It makes it harder to have a conversation with him. I guess i will get up and go take these tests and then breakfast.
Im just a mess.
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Gentle empathy on the mood swings. I been going through some pretty harsh streams of those days in recent weeks. Weeks? ? ? When I'm not busy with my Sheeba, Queen of De Nial duties, I can admit those mood swings are a life long psycho tick and even treat it like a simple fact that I can't trust my judgement while my moods are in rapid cycle. I doesn't pick up heavy loads with a back ache, either and still manage to get through the day. Well? ? ? I'm not so sure since that infant landed on my door step. . . She ain't heavy, but she don't seem to care how much my back is hurting and ? ? ? Insert "Not Working Blues" here. You call this, "Not Working?" Do all lazy bums have toilet scrubbing hobbies?
Yup. . . I'm just a mess working my best guess. . .