Money, Money, Money.....

Got my huge box of meds to start stims on Friday.  Several thousand dollars sitting in a box down stairs.  I don't spend money and when the lady told me the total I almost vomitted.  I thought I had prepared my self, guess not.  Next Monday I will write a ck for $10K, I can not even wrap my mind around it. It doesn't make me not want to do IVF it just makes me worry.  Money=worry.   Plus I am waiting for AF to start so not in the most happy go lucky mood. Oh well it will all be worth it, I believe that.
Sidenote- Seeing the million needles that I will be stabbing myself with over the next two weeks freaked me out.  I hurt already!