Monday Monday Monday!
I want to cry as I write this.
The last few days have been hard. I broke down in front of Matt yesterday; I'm glad he was understanding. It has been so hard for me to move on. I miss Juno so much. I know I sound like a broken record, but it's a pain so deep.
Ziggy's little meows sometimes remind of Juno's, and it's too much. I am trying to take comfort in Ziggy and Marley, however, since they are also sweet little kittens. I hope Juno doesn't mind my loving them..? I feel so much guilt sometimes.
Today is a blechhh Monday -- pouring rain, freezing icy conditions on the road, and the first real day back after break. A long meeting today after school, then I teach half a day tomorrow and the rest of the day is filled with meetings -- yuck!!! I wish I could just be with my students!!! I suffer from depression/anxiety/OCD. Do you ever have days where you feel everything goes wrong or the world is out to get you? That's how I feel today. I just want to go home, bury myself under my comforter, and go to sleep or read a book.
I'll try to write more later, but if I can't...until next time, and know that I am always thinking of you. You've all been lifesavers.
xoxo
The last few days have been hard. I broke down in front of Matt yesterday; I'm glad he was understanding. It has been so hard for me to move on. I miss Juno so much. I know I sound like a broken record, but it's a pain so deep.
Ziggy's little meows sometimes remind of Juno's, and it's too much. I am trying to take comfort in Ziggy and Marley, however, since they are also sweet little kittens. I hope Juno doesn't mind my loving them..? I feel so much guilt sometimes.
Today is a blechhh Monday -- pouring rain, freezing icy conditions on the road, and the first real day back after break. A long meeting today after school, then I teach half a day tomorrow and the rest of the day is filled with meetings -- yuck!!! I wish I could just be with my students!!! I suffer from depression/anxiety/OCD. Do you ever have days where you feel everything goes wrong or the world is out to get you? That's how I feel today. I just want to go home, bury myself under my comforter, and go to sleep or read a book.
I'll try to write more later, but if I can't...until next time, and know that I am always thinking of you. You've all been lifesavers.
xoxo
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I\'m sorry you\'re feeling so down. I think the after holiday blues and miserable January weather is affecting us all. I know I\'ve been right back at the beginning with the nightmares and sleepless nights. It almost becomes a self fulfilling prophecy, lack of sleep makes the day harder and the frustrating days make the nights hard. The less I sleep, the worse it gets. What I\'ve been doing the past week has been forcing myself to go for a walk, regardless of the weather. I did cut my walk short due to the cold but I felt better for having gotten out, if only for a short time. If I wasn\'t such a slug, I\'d be doing some much needed exercise as I know I always feel better afterwards, but it\'s hard to get motivated. I did notice when I\'m especially tired that I have a much harder time at work, which I\'m sure is because I\'m tired and not handling the situations well.
I hope you\'re able to keep the gremlins at bay. As inviting as it may seem to crawl under a blanket, getting outside will help.
The week is almost over!
Hugs Nancy xoxo
Thanks, Nancy! I\'m sorry you\'ve been having nightmares. :( I\'ve had a few myself, although they\'re work related. (Yuck.)
I need to walk! My doctor/psychiatrist suggests it as a mood booster. It\'s just so cold and so easy to make excuses. Good for you for getting out there!
The bell is going to ring :( and yet again I have to leave the internet. But thank you for your response. YES, almost Friday!!! Hugs to you as well. :)
hope your feeling better now its nearing the end of the week and nancy is right,getting out for a walk is vital,i know those feelings of wanting to pull the blankets over your head but resist and keep pushing on.its ok to breakdown sometimes,your still grieving your loss of juno,its going to take alot more time.one day at a time is all we can do!! big hugs xx
Thank you, babyclay. I know I need to walk....it\'s just soooo cold, lol.....so many ways to make excuses during the winter! But I agree, it would boost my mood. I agree, one day at a time. :) xoxo