Monday-Had the wrong date yesterday.4/28/2008

I just heard more tragic news and I do not know what to do.But I heard that a former classmate of mine was killed in an head on collision in Florida.I do not know her name all I know is that the party involved was 17 years old and was driving drunk.She never knew what hit her,she was planning to go to the reunion.Why do people drive their cars when they are drunk? Why are these people doing this? Is it because the movie stars are doing this? And why cant people just learn the art of conversation? Cant people talk anymore? What is the problem? You have got to help me.He does not talk.I do not know what is going on with him and i am at the end of my rope.Listen,if you are shy and do not like to talk do me a big favor--could you just go to another part of the country and stay there? Why are women like me getting these guys who think that not showing feelings is good? And all of this for these guys starts at 15.At this age,they meet a girl and for some reason..she does not like him and instead of taking it in stride,it has haunted him for 25 years.Just who is this creep? Guys cannot understand that girls today want something different and living in a small town is not one of them.I waited a long time to leave my small town.There is nothing there anymore and the town has changed since 1965.I should have left in 1965 but did not have the monetary means.1965 was a magic year and I will never forget it.But lets stop trying to redo the past.Let me keep the music.Let me smell the stale friendships and let me remember how you were.Because my deareveryone changes and if you did not,all I can say is that I pity you and all of your goals.I have learned that he is not the person that I thought that he was.Noone really knew him and the more I learn about him ,my first boyfriend I am so glad that he ended it.But as far as I a, concerned,I will never take him back.He has got 7 children now and he has got to be kidding if he thinks that I will help raise them.I am not the biological parent.It is up to her.It is not up to the step-parent and that included college.Remember this.Do not assume that because you have got children that everyone will like them or accept them.7 is just too much for me and I am sorry I have earned my freedom.