Monday-a promise to myself.
Had a pretty okay weekend, but, I made a promise to myself that I would stop going to bars. Yes, occasionally I go out for a glass of wine but now I'm using it to numb out when I'm under stress and that's not good. I use to like Me better after a few drinks and my ex use to tell me he liked me with a few drinks better. I'm not as uptight or closed off--but.....the downside is, I talk too much after I drink and I trust too much and that scares me.
So...for my own sake, TODAY 07/01/2019, I will no longer pertake of alcoholic beverages...PERIOD. My other half is visitng his mom and I have to say, it's been awhile since I've had a quiet house to myself. I still don't know whats going on at work and honestly I was worried about this a little yesterday. The only thing I can do is keep working hard and avoid talking to people as much as possibly can. I'm not here to make friends, my livelihood is worth much more than being liked or fitting in.
To all my friends, have a blessed and undramatic week. (Hugs)
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Wow! ! ! Keep this up and you might be in danger of living up to your Avi handle. A sage life is a worthy goal in Arf World.
I'm far enough up the food chain that I can afford to play/talk/fuck off/etc as much as I want, but . . . Is it anti-millennial to find far greater satisfaction in a job well done? I typically sleep far better after a productive day's work than after a social chit chat, be it at a bar party or an office water cooler.