Mommy misses you so much

My precious Evelyn.  Mommy has been counting the days and it's been almost 5 months since losing you. I thought it would get better as time passes but it doesn't. I miss you so much and wish I could be holding you right now. I try to imagine what life would be like right now with you. Your cries to have mommy comfort you. It still hurts so much.  Life has not been the same. Mommy still cries for you because I miss you so much. Times have been difficult with your daddy too. Mommy wishes daddy could stop dwelling on the past and let go of it. Daddy needs to allow himself to move forward and be happy. Mommy deserves someone that wants to commit to mommy completely. Mommy doesn't know what to do anymore.  It has been a struggle every day to get through each day. I have to take it one day at a time but it feels like an eternity.  Mommy can't get rid of the pain in my heart. It hurts so much because it's hollow. Mommy just wanted to send you a hello and a great big kiss. Mommy loves you so much Evelyn.