Mom

I miss my mom every second of everyday, its been just over two months since she passed but its as if nothing else in the world matters, i cant focus in school or sleep properly, im anxious and i just want to be left alone because i have no friends- i didnt before it happened but now all of these fake people are pretending like we have been best friends my entire life and i know theyre trying to help but all of them knew she was sick, every single one of them but they didnt care then they care now because they want to make themselves feel better. my mom woudl know how to calm me down, she would know what to do in this situation but im just trying to find my footing and attempting to get my life back on track but i feel like one day im just going to snap at all these people and have a breakdown in front of everyone and then everyone will think its because of mom and in some way it is but they need to learn that theyre not my friends, they see me sad and they look the other way, im not suicidal or depressed im just sad and i miss my mom too much everyday, i wish she was here, i wish i could just hold her and tell her how my day is going. does anyone understand what im talking about because no one that i know does.