Moanin Friends...

Well...I'm wonderin  All winter long as I'm trapped inside..My mind has been wandering..Thru the green forest and grassy medows ..sometimes along a babblin brook.......This time of my life I had hoped....to be free, and comfortable..Not shackled to these disabilities..Chained to loneliness and despair.......As the world changes...I cling to those things I know to be..steadfast, and firmly footed upon the ground..prehaps I'm a tad bit jealous.......In all things...my life was taken from me..against  my will...without my permission.......Beaten and tossed into a world..I had not a hope of being normal...finding the way thru all the lack of...which was knowledge and guidance.......i suppose sometimes I am angry..Sometimes I am just sad..the only lesson I've learned..is that to sit and hold my head and cry.......WHY ME...?Not I...I  made my own life..created my own Joy.......I am at peace, with myself...not always with my past...some memories will haunt you ...ALL the days of your life.......I don't sit and feel sorry for myself..I do often wonder, what my life could of been...If I'd learned love and support from my parents...so I sit and ramble thru my thoughts.......I think I"m lost.... russ