Mixed Up

I am calling do you hear , Reaching out but you walk away all eyes cant  see the pain all ca not feel the pain only those that live with the pain know just how real the pain is and how bad the pain can really be yes i look good on the out side  but crying real tears on the inside yes i try to be strong and glow with a beautiful smile but thats only for show , I try not to complain and most of the time i do not i say why complain that want help , I try to go on with a normal life doing normal thing and reap the pain at  end am i human  believe  i am i suffer in my closed walls  feeling  pushed away , a spirit slowly dying the pain i feel is real put yourself in my shoes ,in my tears, my limitations of my pain world is very real, Laughing  on the outside screeming on the inside i never thought  i would go through something like this But i pray to god and my God keep me strong he never leave me alone he said you are my child  you hold on and I AM STILL PRESSING ON  MY GOD IS THERE ALL THE TIME DAY AND NIGHT