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This year has been extremly painful for me. I nearly lost a friend over a boy/ex. I've been seeing a counselor and it turns out i am depressed, she says its in the range of minor. I am a very emotional person, i get my feelings hurt alot and i'm scared i might have a melt down soon. I just want to have friends who i can trust.I have friends who do stuff with out me and i bend over backwards for these people. I have low self esteem issues. I do feel ugly most of the time, i do feel i'm not smart enough or good enough for some crowds. This place is comforting. Its like a safe place.
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It\'s been a hard year for me too, and I know what you mean about not feeling attractive - it\'s hard for me to believe I look good no matter how hard I try - I\'m in my 30\'s and married and still people can say mean things, and I don\'t know why, when most of the time I think I look ok. I live in a busy city and there are a lot of rude people I suppose, but it really affects my self confidence. I feel I used to be prettier when I was younger, too. I have also learned a lot about friendships this year, and had to let a few friends go that were not true friends, but made a couple new ones too and I hope that will last....it sounds like you are really working on things, and that is all we can do is learn to accept ourselves and be ourselves, and not care what others think. It is a daily battle for me. Hang in there...