Mixed Emotions
Well, the Christmas Season is upon us again and a week is Christmas. It's been almost 3 years since my sweetie's gone away. This year, I'm finding myself becoming more and more bitter, angry, frustrated as it gets closer and closer to Christmas this year. When my sweetie was alive, my life was busier, happier, full of great times and fun, phone ringing off the hook. Now, my life is the complete opposite. I'm lucky if I get to go out for fun and a good time only twice a year and my phone can go for up to 2 weeks before it rings and its a telemarketer. It makes me wonder if other people go through this as well. It's so freaking frustrating to feel like a 5th wheel around your friends who are still with their spouses and/or life partner. Maybe they were feeling uncomfortable having me around, maybe they didn't want me around any more since my own sweetie went away. I just don't know why all of this change is taking place. I just wish I knew what to think, why I'm feeling so angry, frustrated, feeling these changes going on with me. Maybe things will look better in the morning after a good night's sleep.
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I really hope you had a good nights sleep.
People just don\'t know what to say around us. It really is their problem not ours.i have found it best to start making another group of friends.
Don\'t expect too much from people, especially the couples, they will never know until they are in our situation.
Meet up groups are great, I joined a few, one for extra Bible study, one for travel excursions and one for pole walking, which is brisk walking with poles( by holding the poles they enable you to exercise your arms too)
In short, just put energy into You. Do things for You. You will begin to have purpose and not even think of your PAST friends.
Thinking of you my friend,
Hugs Sandra