Mixed Emotions

This year has been extremly painful for me. I nearly lost a friend over a boy/ex. I've been seeing a counselor and it turns out i am depressed, she says its in the range of minor. I am a very emotional person, i get my feelings hurt alot and i'm scared i might have a melt down soon. I just want to have friends who i can trust.I  have friends who do stuff with out me and i bend over backwards for these people. I have low self esteem issues. I do feel ugly most of the time, i do feel i'm not smart enough or good enough for some crowds. This place is comforting. Its like a safe place.