misunderstood

i just dont like people and its hard to get along with family. epecially when it comes to hardships im fscing they dont understand they blame me for what im going thru. basically when im having a bad day its my fault. everythings my fault. i asked my brother to loan me some money only 60 bucks since i am unemployed and my phone pooped the bed yesterday. i found a nice deal for a new phone. both brothers are just idk. my mom is especially blaming me but she has been very harsh and mean to me. my dad is tring to find a job but people blame their own unhappiness on that and other circumstances. so because i am trying to grow and find myself and heal.idk.im just misunderstood.yes thats the word i am misunderstood. everyone thinks they know wats best for me and who i am and whats ging on etc but they don't. they have the slightest clue. only God knows and i dont even know sometimes. ya know. but for real i been getting away from my house staying the night at friends house to relax and thats good im just tired mentally and physiclly. i  need a job and im in the process of getting one. everyone just has to be rude and have their opinion they dont have a filter and cant keep things to themselves. also i just switched doses of my medicine and went of my birth control so mny changes with my body etc. too no one is sensitive to that even when i expplain