misunderstood

apparently my busy head thought things through before i had all the information. my gf only said i shouldnt come for christmas although she wants me to because her mother is very elderly and confused and i will stress her out being a stranger. there still is the possibility i may go. guess got upset for nothing. guess it comes for so many years not being invited anywhere. im oversensitive this i know. not going to christmas at my parents because they are having it the day after christmas. heard mother saying in backround sister not going if i am. guess she can go now. one day at a time. work is crazy just trying to do my best and realize i cannot control other peoples actions. was absolutely insane weekend at work. the next 3 weeks will be the same.