Mississippi Sad
Ok, so here I am at my inlaws in MS.I had 4 breakdown's today,every time they would say Pat's name I would have to get up and excuse myself and run cry.Then me and the kid's went to put flower's on the grave and well I lost it again but my 15 yr old was worse,she really holds it inside and only talk's to a few friend's about the way she feels but today she was yelling and crying at the grave,wondering why it had to be her dad that died at 47,it was really bad then my son who's slightly autistic and 22 was crying and upset but he was ok compared to my daughter,she said now do you see why I hate it here? It's because there's no escape,and in TN none of us have to think about it 24\7 but here we do,she was begging to leave today and go home to TN,but we still have 2 places we have to go to and hopefully she will be better there instead of inlaws.
I sure hope some thing's change for us when we get back home, We need something good to happen for us,I am hoping that getting a used singlewide and fixing it so we have no rent to pay(other than lot rent) will help and me getting a job will too. We could use some good news for a change. I had high hopes for 2011 and it sure let me down,I hope 2012 is a better year. Merry Christmas and happy new year me
I sure hope some thing's change for us when we get back home, We need something good to happen for us,I am hoping that getting a used singlewide and fixing it so we have no rent to pay(other than lot rent) will help and me getting a job will too. We could use some good news for a change. I had high hopes for 2011 and it sure let me down,I hope 2012 is a better year. Merry Christmas and happy new year me
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I hope 2012 is a better year for us all, even though it will not bring our loved ones back. I am sorry you have to struggle so. Take care as best you can, my friend. God Bless.
-MJ
Keep writing and talking to him, ask your children to do the same. It will help with their built up grief.
Try to find bereavement counceling in your town for you and your children.
Bottling it up is not good, my daughter did that and she had such a hard break down and it could of all been avoided if she would of worked with her grief with a councelor.
Yes your husband is a spirit being and always around all of you and his body is not him anymore. I am 1000s of miles away from Carmelo\'s grave but I feel him inside me everyday.
I pray that 2012 brings you the comfort and peace your family desperately needs.
Your friend,
Judy
Your daughters crying is a good thing as we tell each other on here, let it out when you need to. I know you will be there for her so she can talk about how the loss has affected her and she too will heal in time along with you. I wish you all the best in 2012 and beyond......hugs Shirley