Missing you so much today
Hi Baby,
Really missing you today. Tears flowing this morning before I left for work. Work kept me busy. You know how I am about the job. I get sucked into the different projects and it keeps my mind busy. Then it is time to go home and as soon as I get in the car the tears start again. It's just so unfair. We went through so many hard times but they were easy enough to weather because we were together. Now I am just so lonely without you. I feel hollow inside except when the pain comes. I miss the stupidest things. You know how I always teased you when you sang. Told you that you could not carry a tune in a bucket. You would laugh and say what's the matter you don't like my singing? Then you would sing some more. I would give anything to hear your off key singing just one more time. It always made me smile. I hate when I pull up to the house and see the empty porch knowing you will never be standing there waiting for me again. Our life was never easy or perfect but I don't regret one moment of our time together because I know we truly loved each other and we were happy just being together. I want the pain to stop. I want to think of you and smile which is how it always was when you were here. Even after 32 years just a simple thought of you throughout the day would bring a smile to my face. Now it just brings tears. I don't want the memory of you to be a sad one. It is not right as you always brought such happiness to my life. I will never stop thinking of you just hoping that someday the memories will bring me nothing but happiness.
Love you always and you will always be in my heart,
Your Wife
Really missing you today. Tears flowing this morning before I left for work. Work kept me busy. You know how I am about the job. I get sucked into the different projects and it keeps my mind busy. Then it is time to go home and as soon as I get in the car the tears start again. It's just so unfair. We went through so many hard times but they were easy enough to weather because we were together. Now I am just so lonely without you. I feel hollow inside except when the pain comes. I miss the stupidest things. You know how I always teased you when you sang. Told you that you could not carry a tune in a bucket. You would laugh and say what's the matter you don't like my singing? Then you would sing some more. I would give anything to hear your off key singing just one more time. It always made me smile. I hate when I pull up to the house and see the empty porch knowing you will never be standing there waiting for me again. Our life was never easy or perfect but I don't regret one moment of our time together because I know we truly loved each other and we were happy just being together. I want the pain to stop. I want to think of you and smile which is how it always was when you were here. Even after 32 years just a simple thought of you throughout the day would bring a smile to my face. Now it just brings tears. I don't want the memory of you to be a sad one. It is not right as you always brought such happiness to my life. I will never stop thinking of you just hoping that someday the memories will bring me nothing but happiness.
Love you always and you will always be in my heart,
Your Wife
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I feel just like you and it\'s been 11 months. I once saw Vice President Biden talking about when he lost his first wife and son in a car accident. He said the pain was unbearable and he never thought he would get over it. He also said it took a long time. He was talking to people that had lost loved ones during a shooting in a church of all places. He went on to say and I quote \"When the day comes that you can talk about a memory of them and it brings a smile to your lips instead of a tear to you eye, you will know your going to be alright.\" That hasn\'t happened for me yet but I wait for the say it will. I pray it does. I hope he is right. He has been through it. I hope it happens to you to. It was 32 years for you and 35 years for me. I loved him so deeply. I will love him forever. I can only pray for you and hope things get better one day at a time for both of us. Everyone here. (((Hugs))) Linda