Missing you so much
Stevan,
Today I thought I was doing good then one of the many times I thought of you tears came streaming down my face. It comes at the drop of a hat still. The pain is still there although not as harsh as the first few weeks, this my no means diminishes the fact that I LOVE YOU as much as I did before and Miss you as much but I had to talk myself out of the continuing sadness that has engulfed my being. I can't stay that way it hurts too much and is just wearing me out so I hope you understand what I need to do, well try to at least. I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU and want you BACK HERE with us but I know that will never be.
PLEASE SEND ME A SIGN THAT YOU ARE HERE WITH US.
I WORRY SO MUCH ABOUT YOU
CASEY PUT TOGETHER A PICTURE BOOK OF YOU AND TODAY I HAD TO LOOK AT IT WITH HER AND ALL I WANTED WAS TO HOLD YOU AGAIN AT EVERY PICTURE. I TOUCHED EACH ONE AND SMILED AND TEARED UP. I WANT TO MAKE HER AND KYLE A PICTURE BOOK ON SHUTTERBUG SO THAT THEY CAN HAVE A GOOD KEEPSAKE WITH YOUR PICTURES.
I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU MY DEAR STEVAN
ALWAYS & ALWAYS
FOEVER & EVER
Laur
Today I thought I was doing good then one of the many times I thought of you tears came streaming down my face. It comes at the drop of a hat still. The pain is still there although not as harsh as the first few weeks, this my no means diminishes the fact that I LOVE YOU as much as I did before and Miss you as much but I had to talk myself out of the continuing sadness that has engulfed my being. I can't stay that way it hurts too much and is just wearing me out so I hope you understand what I need to do, well try to at least. I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU and want you BACK HERE with us but I know that will never be.
PLEASE SEND ME A SIGN THAT YOU ARE HERE WITH US.
I WORRY SO MUCH ABOUT YOU
CASEY PUT TOGETHER A PICTURE BOOK OF YOU AND TODAY I HAD TO LOOK AT IT WITH HER AND ALL I WANTED WAS TO HOLD YOU AGAIN AT EVERY PICTURE. I TOUCHED EACH ONE AND SMILED AND TEARED UP. I WANT TO MAKE HER AND KYLE A PICTURE BOOK ON SHUTTERBUG SO THAT THEY CAN HAVE A GOOD KEEPSAKE WITH YOUR PICTURES.
I LOVE YOU, I MISS YOU MY DEAR STEVAN
ALWAYS & ALWAYS
FOEVER & EVER
Laur
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it\'s right about the time you think you might have taken a small step forward you fall apart. Thinking of you xxx I\'ll hang in there if you do :)
I will hang in there, YOU TOO ;) I know that they would want us to. They, one day will be our inspiration to move forward and leave this horrible pain and start to find happiness in our lives again, it doesn\'t seem so yet but I know it will happen, we just need time.
Peace and Love to you
Laurie