Missing them

Well life hasn't always been good for me been some rough times I'm grateful for the good things and the good times I've had losing my sister and my bf so suddenly these past 5 months has been hard I have some family left but it was me and my sister together since my parents passed away and I had met my bf 4 years ago and now the two most important people to me are gone and it's hard to understand why. Why were they taken I don't see the reason I don't know if I'll ever heal from this pain maybe one day but it don't seem like I will not at this point