missing the closeness

im missing the closeness with girlfriends. i miss it so much. it hurts that everyone doesn't have time for me. and they make me feel like i am being to much when i know i have gotten better with that. christmas would be alot happier if i had this closeness with someone. i just miss this feeling so much and i am praying that i can get it back some day. with missing this feeling, it is making me feel depressed because i am craving close deep friendship so bad. i hope i can find it someday.