Missing so much
I was just told that my 11 month old niece is now walking. I love her and am so happy but this just reminds me of all the stuff I will never get to see my son do. I wonder what he would be doing now at 8 months. I always picture him as a funny little guy like his father, laughing and smiling. This is the worst pain, why do we have to go through this? Really? It took 4 years to conceive my son and he passes one day before he was due. What have I done to deserve this much pain? I miss him so much, I will never be the same, life will never be the same.
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I\'m so sorry Pamela you have done nothing to deserve this sweetie. It has to be one of the hardest things is hearing and seeing other children doing what our children will never get to. It is unbelievably unfair. Especially when I see so many people who do not treat their children well or I see a hugely pregnant women smoking a cigarette outside the grocery store. It makes me super angry. I wish I could make it so this never happened again. Hugs and prayers. Love Lindsay
I\'ve been feeling the same things. We don\'t deserve any of this pain. James is watching over you. I pray that you have a rainbow in your arms soon.
I know what you mean. I wonder every day what my son would have looked like and what milestone he would be hitting right now. And I will have days where my chest literally hurts just thinking about him. It is so unfair and none of us deserve a second of this pain. I\'m sorry for you and praying we all get through it.
I feel the same way too. Its so hard to have to dream about our angels and wonder what our life would be like with them in our arms....watching them grow and seeing them develop their personality each day. None of us deserve this pain and its so hard to understand why were all on this path. Hoping that we all find strength during our hardest moments.
Hi Pamela. We share a date you and I. I went in for my cesaerian on the 15th of December 2010. Our son Luhan\'s heartbeat was missing. He was stillborn. Was at the ob the day before and all was well, even felt him kicking before I went to bed. So many unanswered question. So many what ifs... Often wonder what I did so horribly wrong in the eyes of God to deserve this punishment...
Hi Pamela, it is unfair and I think we will always look to other children and wonder what our angels would be doing at certain milestones. You don\'t deserve any of this and you didn\'t do anything wrong. Thinking of you and hope there will be a rainbow through the clouds