Missing Paco.... EmoTionS....

today was a weird kind of day.... i missed Paco today. He was my little buddy... he let me hold him and he liked to sit in my lap. Sophie doesn't do any of that. She loves her papa. That's okay. The minute he gets home, she follows him around the whole night... sits with him, sits in his lap while he drives... she's funny. He's the ONLY one she does that with. 

Funny girl. 

I just miss Paco.... i don't miss the pp on the floor, and having to clean up after him. all that mess... but he was MY dog. 

i got laundry done. i actually hung it out on the line today. It dries very fast. The only thing i don't like on the line are towels. They dry "crunchy" ... ugh. 

i made homemake chicken pot pie for supper. Mmmm. WE LOVE IT.... we just stuff ourselves with it. I season it with celery salt and sage and it makes all the difference. 

I felt LOW today. just humdrum and even depressed. I usually do by Friday for some odd reason. Being a SAHW is just so..... i don't know.... unfulfilling sometimes. I still am not used to it. I miss teaching. I miss VIPKID. 

Today I just felt empty and lost. And that's okay. I just let myself feel it. 

I also looked into the back window of my kitchen while we sat on the patio and i felt thankful that we got the kitchen painted. and i felt thankful that my husband comes home from a job he loves and that he works hard for us all week long.

I was thankful I had someone to sit on the porch with and enjoy the evening. and we went to get tea and drove around with the windows down on the car. i love that. i was thankful that i am not alone at night. that i have a wonderful partner in life and that we are so blessed. we love sophie, and our home, and our place here.... 

we have a backyard that is peaceful. 

so... i felt many things today. and that's okay. 

that's good.... i can feel all those things.... and be thankful. for paco. for the jobs i've had. for my home. for summertime. for a great supper. for a nice, clean peaceful home. 

namaste

G