Missing my sister tonight

Up late again when I should be sleeping- can't seem to get on track with all the pain lately. Tonight I keep thinking of my youngest sister. She's the one who always makes me feel like I'm somebody special, who never judges me and can always make me laugh (or let me cry when I need to). I hate that she lives so far away. Even though we keep in touch with emails, letters and phonecalls it's not the same as being with her. But I'm lucky to have her in my life and to know that I'm loved through all of this- she still sees me as ME. It's hard enough to accept the changes that come with not being able to do the same things as before, but sometimes those around me make me feel like I'm letting them down and it makes me feel even worse.