Missing my love

Everyday the pain get deeper and deeper.  Coming home to an enty house and not hearing his music and him singing away is so hard and painful.  Walking in through the door and wanting to see him and realizing that he is no longer there is the most cruel and painful thing that can happen to anyone.  I miss him everyday and wonder how long can I continue this life without him.  How do I keep moving?  How do I keep smiling?  How do I pretend that everything is okey when I am dying inside?  Why did this happen?   We had plans and now what do I do with them?  I feel all alone eventhough my kids are around me.  At night I long for that hug, kiss and warmth of his body beside me.  I look at his side of the bed and see emptiness and the tears start flowing.  This is too much for anyone to bear.  I look around the house and everything reminds me of him yet I cannot move anything around because I feel like it is like trying to forget him.  His glasses are still by the computer like he left it.  His cooking books are still where he left them.  I hug his sweater at night to feel his comfort and smell.  Can someone tell me how do we get over this huge pain and hole that keeps getting bigger everyday.  Why did this have to happen?  What is the purpose of death?  How long do we have to wait before we see our love ones again?  God I ask that you inspire me and show me why did this happen?  Death is cruel to the ones left behind and I wonder if our love ones miss us like we do.  I want to hug my husband at least for one last time and tell him that I love him and that I miss him.  Why do good people die?  Why do criminals, drug dealers, child molestors keep living while our love ones go?  Why God?  I am so hurt that I just want answers so that I understand why my husband had to die?  Why did you choose him God?  I think that I am going crazy with this pain.   Everyday is a battle for me.  I am tired and I miss him so much.  He was my strenght and reason for me to survive.  He was my everything.  God please give me the strenght to continue this life.  I miss him and I want him to know it.