Missing my favourite boy in the world!!!
I miss my little nephew sooooooooo much today! I don't know why all the sudden today it's become just too much for me not being able to see him.. but it's un friggin bearable right now! He's going to be 2 in 3 days and I haven't seen him since December. I won't see him again until August :S That is such a long time. It's killin me! I haven't even met his baby sister yet who was born in June. When I moved out here in January my little guy was just beginning to walk with the help of holding onto things and developing a very rudimentary vocabulary... now he is running around and jumping and talking a mile a minute and he's a little boy now, not the baby he was when I left. I talk to him on the phone sometimes and I am sooo glad he still knows who I am (thanks to my mom showing him pictures all the time so he doesn't forget). I am missing him like crazy today. My stomach actually hurts. I'm half in tears. I can't concentrate on my schoolwork right now because all I can think about is how much I am missing out on being all the way on the opposite side of the country from my favourite little guy. He's discovering new things and new skills every day and I'm not there to see it. I sometimes really regret my decision to move out here. The only family I have here is my older brother who lives right down the street from me. I am very happy he is here. But it's so hard being so far away from my family. My mom and dad visited us in the summer and they are coming out on my reading week in february to ski/snowboard with me and my bro (well, mom is going to sit in a hottub and read while dad, ed and I hit to hills) which I am super stoked for. I miss my parents too, but I've always been a very independent person and I've never had a hard time being away from my parents or my brothers, etc. But having a nephew is so different. My parents, my brothers, my sis in law, my cousens.. they don't change completely between visits. They're the same folks I left behind in December and will be when I see them again. But my nephew just keeps growing and growing! It's not just the fact that I am missing out on so much, but its a totally different love than I have for anyone else in the whole world. He is the most amazing thing in my life and I love him with all my heart. I love the rest of my family, but I can go months and months without completely missing them. Talking to them on the phone is enough for me for the most part. But it's not enough when it comes to my nephew..... When I talk to him on the phone, or I look at pictures of him or watch videos my mom puts on facebook of him it just makes me miss him even more. It just reminds me how much I am missing out on. It's tearing me apart today and I don't know how to deal. I can't sit here all day pining over him... but I can't help it! I'm having a really really rough time with it today.
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It is so hard to miss our families, especially at special times like birthdays, and other holidays.... Can you video chat via computer? Seeing him may make you feel better... If not, maybe you can at least talk to him on the phone on his birthday... Your parents trip out there sounds wonderful, and it isn\'t so far away..February will be here before we know it! Hang in there hun..you are doing so well..You can make it.. xxx
When I am away from close family and friends I tend to send them snail mail to show them I\'m thinking of them and that I care. I also call constantly. It may be really difficult but you can get through this!!! It is good you have your brother down the street. Until you are able to move closer to other family members, do your best to be around your brother for support. I understand the feelings about having a niece/nephew and you are right, they change every time you see them! My brother and sister-in-law just recently had a babygirl. I want to be around her all the time but it\'s not possible. Everytime I see her, she is bigger and has new features I never noticed the time before. Just keep your nephew in your mind. I put pictures all around my apartment and on my computer and even in my car to help remind me of my friends, family and those I love. Chin up!!! If you need anything, write me :) I\'m here to support you through this.
I have a theory - maybe He is missing You, and you are feeling it, and now you\'re triggered by feeling him missing you and so you are missing him. Either way, that is a really hard one. I really like these ideas above me here. Still, it hurts like hell, I know. Really sorry. Think about the next time you see him, how that will be, k? Hang in there. Know he loves and misses you too.
Would it be possible for you and his family to get webcams so you could see him while you chatted? Also it they have digital camcorders, they could upload little movies for you to see him.
Best of luck, it is always hard to be separated from those we love.