MISSING MOMS!

I'M REALLY FEELING DOWN, NO ONE CAN REPLACE A MOTHER NO MATTER HOW MUCH ONE DOES NOT GET ALONG. I WASN'T NEAR AS BAD AS MY DAUGHTER IS, MY MOMS NEEDS WERE MET, FOOD, CIGS, POOHY, MY BAD HABBIT ALSO, DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS, ETC.ETC., HER NEEDS WERE MET AND I HAD BROUGHT INTO OUR HOME A HOMELESS WOMAN WITH HER GERMAN SHEPERD DOG DUKEY, AHHHHHH MY MOM LOVED THAT DOG, AND THAT DOG LOVED HER, THEY USED TO HAVE A PIECE OF BUTTERED TOAST IN THE MORNING TOGETHER, AND ELAINE BECAME ONE OF THE BEST CARE TAKER, WE ARE STILL FRIENDS TODAY, 15 PLUS YEARS. I MAY HAVE BEEN WITH FREDDY A LOT BUT MY MOTHER WAS IN GOOD HANDS. I REALLY MISS HER, SHE HAS BEEN ON MY MIND AND IN MY HEART ALL DAY LONG. SHE LEFT HELLS EARTH AND WENT HOME NOVEMBER 25TH/1994, BLACK FRIDAY, IT WAS LIKE YESTERDAY.    I MISS HER SO MUCH BECAUSE ON MONDAY IS HER BIRTHDAY, SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN 81 IF SHE WAS ALIVE. BUT SHE ISN'T, AND IT HURTS, I'M SO DARN ALONE, MY KID BARELY TALKS TO ME, IF I ASK HER FOR SOME THING WELL YOU ALL KNOW HOW THAT GOES, NOW MORE THEN EVER I SIT IN MY PEANUT SHELL ROOM, ONLY COMPANY IS THE BOYS, ADULT FACES ARE NOT KNOWN TO ME, NOT PHYSICALLY, IF I GO INTO THE LIVING ROOM HER GAZE IS SET ON THE TV, YEH SHE ASK ME TONIGHT IF I WANTED CHINEESE FOOD, NO THANK YOU. I CAN NOT GET CLOSE TO HER, NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO. I WANT TO WRITE MORE BUT FOR SOME REASON I'M SO SLEEPY, MUST BE THE REQUIPS FOR MY LEGS. HAVE A NICE NIGHT JOURNAL, GOOD NIGHT!                                                                                  JUST ME