Missing links

I so miss the pitter patter of the baby kittens I bottle fed for 2 - 3 weeks, got them to eat and found wonderful homes for them.  I wanted to keep them but my older male cat who I got at 5 weeks was very upset...I was afraid he would hurt them....
 
They kept me so busy for 7 weeks there is now a missing link....I sorta feel sad and lonely wow over baby kittens.
Rode my horse this past week with Granddaughter Hayley...he worked real good after being off for so long...NOW I need to get someone to ride with...AND keep going.
There are these lauls in times I feel doing it all alone...its almost 3 years ago Roger had his heart attack...and it feels not so long ago and I am right now feeling darn it I do not want to be alone the rest of my life.....so saying this sucks....TODAY