Missing her today.

Today is one of those days, one of those many days past and future, where I am thinking of her almost every second of the day. I miss her terribly. I hurt more because I know I have hurt her so deeply. We talked this morning and she cried again. Every time I hear her cry, it tears my heart out. I pray for God's healing to come to both of us daily, and I know it will eventually, but til then, this just hurts. The pain is so unbearable sometimes, I just want to go dig a hole and hide in it. I pray for God's strength and courage and grace to come and help me through all this.