Missing Abby
Abby has been gone for one month and a day. I am missing her so much and I can't seem to find any happiness since she has been gone. When I think of her I cry which happens to be most of the day. Today is the 4th of July and she was always so afraid of the fireworks, she even had to be medicated a few times but that was not working because no matter what dose she was given it would make her sleep for over 24 hours and that was not good. The last couple of years were not that bad because she was losing her hearing so if I kept the windows closed and the TV loud she could not her them at all.
Abby Baby, mama misses you so much and wish I could hold you and rub your tummy, you loved having your tummy rubbed but not as much as you loved having your back end scratched. I rubbed your tummy just before I had to let you go, I hope you knew how much we loved you and how much happiness you brought to us. I do hope there really is a Rainbow Bridge and you are running free without any pain or fears. We will always remember you and love you baby girl.
Abby Baby, mama misses you so much and wish I could hold you and rub your tummy, you loved having your tummy rubbed but not as much as you loved having your back end scratched. I rubbed your tummy just before I had to let you go, I hope you knew how much we loved you and how much happiness you brought to us. I do hope there really is a Rainbow Bridge and you are running free without any pain or fears. We will always remember you and love you baby girl.
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Hugs and Cuddles Julie. The Is a Rainbow Bridge. We need to think of them as the wonderful, loving, happy Precious Beloveds as we once knew them. They deserve this and so do we.
you need to be gentle with yourself...remembering the love that you shared is a nice way to heal.
This is a very sad journal, yet, inspirational. It shows how much you love your baby, Abby. I have known you for a while now, and always the same, how much love and devotion you have for your babies. I am sorry for your pain, and words can\'t take that pain away, how well I know. I grieved so hard for my Whitey Joe, NIbby Man, Buddy Bit, Chippers and China. The pain, the tears and the wonderful memories seemed more than I could bear, especially when my two were poisoned. You will never know how much I suffered.
For you, please know you are in my thoughts, and I truly do mean that. I can feel your pain in this journal, and your undying devotion for your babies. I truly do care and I am sorry for your loss
I also wish to say that it is my desire to be there for others when they lose their babies, because as an avid animal lover, we will always have to face the time of losing our babies, and it doesn\'t make it any easier.
Thanks so much for all the kind words. Each day gets a little easier and I can look back and see that she really was not doing well for the last year but I was in denial. I do miss her and wish we could have more years with our furbabies. I have to try and remember her, I don\'t ever want to forget but it seems when I go through something tramatic in my life, I block it out. I can see that already happening.
Angel,
My heart breaks reading this post. Deep down, you know you did the right thing. It\'s hard to lose a loved one no matter the circumstances. I blame myself for not taking my baby to the vet or ER earlier. Maybe if I did, she\'d still be here. Rationally, we know we did everything, yet emotionally we feel the guilt and think what if?
I wish I could take your pain (and mine and everyone else) away. I am hoping over time the pain will ease.
Find Peace that you are and were Loved, and that Abby is at Peace Now, and will see you in heaven one day,..I miss all my lost pups, exspcially my Max that I had to put to sleep cause he got Cancer somehow,. and could not eat or drink and barely could walk,.. He loved me so much would always show that, just like my Dalmation Buster and my Childhood DOg Pudden. hang in there maybe you can get another pup one day and show and feel the love from them, we will always remember our Loved ones, and past Pets, its hard to go without them, but we must,. just don\'t regreat doing what you had to do, I know that\'s hard also, but our pets deserve to live without suffering,.. HUgs,. Michael