missing a friend

today I found out ..that ..one of my friends ..in here ..paindlove .....has closed his account .....I .am ...heart broken ....because I knew ...what he was ..going through ....and to think of him ...with out the support of this group ...is somthing ..I dident want to ever have to do ......I will keep him always in my prayers ..him and his mom .....I don't think ..anyone ..but the people in here can understand ...how I can feel this loss ....because ..it also comes with worry. ..about ..if he will survive ....his depreshion ...in here at least ..he was with ..people who could understand ....and except him ....just the way he was ...no pressure ..no ..judgment ...I know how ..much this group has ment to me through out the years ....I was not a very good friend this last ...while ...for that I am sorry ....it is somthing I can't take back .....I was not well enough to be here ...he will remain always my friend ...and I will keep him always in my prayers .........I think I will right about him .....so I don't forget ......I do that sometimes ....right about important things in my life .......important people in my life .....when he rote ..his pain ..was ..unmistakable ...it was powerful ...he had so much passion in him and depreshion has robed him ..of ...being able .to ..follow his passion ....as he was ment to .....one day I hope ..that will all Chang for him ....that is what I will pray for ...for him ....God bless ..my friend ....